hujan lebat dlm hati

da 4bln aku sewa umh ni...sorg2..sume bnde sorg2..kalau sdey cmne pun,kne la pjuk dri sndri,tenangkan dri sndri..mase kje kt quality hotel,hmpir2 ptus smgt tuk truskan idup aku kt sini,mcm2 bde jd,wat ape pun sume xkne..aku xjd dri aku sndri,total stranger,..aku jd btol2 down,smpai doc cnfirmkan aku ade hyper tension,pergh...dlm keperitan idup sorg2 tu,Allah limpahkan sinarNya pada dri ku yg kerdil ni..syukur..Allah bukakan jln tuk aku,bg kekuatan kt aku..syukur,aku mmpu tuk tenang kmbali,idup terurus,kerja ok,sume nye ok smpai aku mmpu snyum tiap hari..

syukur Alhamdulillah..

abes je kt quality hotel,aku trus kje as tourist guide..kje smbil blja..aku kje n g training skali..but still im all alone..aku truskan bedoa tuk dptkan ptunjuk dlm idup sharian ku..syukur,Tuhan beri jwpan kat aku tiap kali aku berdoa kpd Nya..slm mse same ade jgk aku bdoa tuk jdoh aku,yela,umur da 25,tgk kwn2 rmai da kwen,tringin skali nk kwen n ade tman idup..Tuhan bg ptunjuk tp dlm mse sama bg ujian kt aku..3org gadis hadir dlm idup aku..berlainan gaya dan perangai..tp aku gagal dlm menentukan yg mne satu sbb ttbe aku tgk diri aku lgsung xlyk tuk sape2..sorg kwn nsht kan aku,nk jg n bmbing org,make sure improve dri sndri dlu smpai yakin nk amek tggjwb..

kje baru ni wat aku lg tension..sume cine kot..20org cine then aku sorg je mlayu..dgn dorg xbgaul ngn aku nye,bos pun skali naek kpala,briefing dlm mndarin..haish..down...down..pstu kesah cinta pun xkemane..si dia lg melayan kwn2 dye n kwn2 aku lbh dr aku..sigh..aku kmbali xtng,kusut,serabut,tension n ptah smgt..kekuatan pun da ilang..maybe btol la,aku xlyk tuk sesiapa..hmmm

rainbow and rain after the storm

well,here i am,again...writing my blog..
its been a while i guess,..here's the story behind it..2month a go,i lost my love,i lost my nyssa. shouldn't have blame her though,everyone has their reason for leaving someone,rite?been mental breakdown since then..it cost me the whole month to totally forget bout her(lying)..we've been together for 3years n pooom suddenly,she want to breakup, leaving me for another guy(her ex)..demn it..in an instant she hate me n totally forget bout me..arrrgh.. i've been alone throughout these 3months,n finally regain my strength back..thnks to my chef and frenz that hav been there for me..most of all sykur alhamdulillah..

tahun baru...azam baru..family tetap no satu..heheh

sblum thn 2010 berakhir smpat jgk la kami satu family berkmpul kat KL neh..lame mne da xdpt brkmpul sume skali...t aritu termakbul,syukur ...